fredlet

Leo

By Rick Levine

Although you don't have to put your feelings out in the open today, you may go through an existential meltdown as your emotions pull you into the shadows. You are someone who is accustomed to the light, so it's challenging for you to get a clear perspective on what's happening now. For the moment, don't worry about where you are and forget about reaching any goals. It's more important to focus on the intensity of your current feelings and to process them in real time.

I'm sort of in the shadows today. For the last several days actually.
I'm combating it the chemical way (proper nutrition, walking endorphins…what did you think I meant?) and it just seems to get more polyphonic as I go along. Usually, I'll puzzle over why I am wonky then think "Oh, time for PMS?" and then think "Ah yes." and it will subside because I know the reason for it and I can dismiss it.
It isn't working this time.
So, I'll just plow my way through it and see how it goes.

Busy work things going on, in general things are moving along well..(in general but I don't want to discuss specific grievances as it would precipitate a serious change and I can't do that right now.)
I'm learning to knit socks. I'm slow, but game for it. I have about an inch of ribbing done so far, but I don't have lots of time to knit, and since it is a new thing, I can't quite multi-task with it yet. Also, Bunny doesn't seem to like it much when I knit and does her damndest to get where the needles are. Its cute actually and I'm still pleased that she has about 85% more perky days than non-perky days.  We've also managed to stuff her so full of food so that she's gained back about .4 pounds (according to the highly scientific luggage-carrier-holding-up-a-portable-cat-carrier method of weighing. I think part of it is the Pepcid levels I have her on are just a bit higher than I did before..not drastically, but I go through one pill in 3.5 days rather than 4 days. She's not up to 2 doses a day yet; we'll hold that in reserve. But I'm pleased as she was looking just a tad scrawny.) She's happy to eat as well and anyone who knows what that means in cats knows that getting them to eat is half the battle.
Well, we 'll see how she has been doing next MON when I taker her to see her vet.

Small victories here and there, I scored a jacket at Target which I am calling my cotton Buzz Rickson's. Its kind of a mixture between an actual Rickson's (which are supposed to be made of nylon) and Mikey's jacket he got in Italy that I have long threatened to steal from him as it is the perfect weight, softness and color (cotton with some padding and the color of washed out ebony dye). Also a funky teapot (that I also use as a watering can for my indoor plants) to use while sitting out on the veranda (its a big building and I am lucky enough to pretend it is all my own porch ;) ) and drinking my new find:Honeybush tea. Honeybush is an herbal tea (which I normally hate) and has sort of English Breakfast and honey undertones, but has the happy quality of never getting bitter no matter how long you steep it in the pot/cup/thermos-in-your-pack. Numi is the only one I have tried (in teabags from Whole Paycheck) but I'm pondering getting a big bag of loose tea that they have on Amazon [Find it here: http://www.amazon.com/Numi-Bushmens-Honeybush-Herbal-16-Ounce/dp/B001EQ5ILA/ ]. I might see if the Numi place (I see the business on the way home) has a store that I can drop by and play around in the teas. Its always nice to find a new drink since I'm so picky and there is such a lot of crap out there.

My new phone (yes, I broke down and got a Centro-and I love it even if Palm as a company is irritating me profoundly) is set up and working well. I waited a month and found it for $100 less than last month when I tried to give Palm my money and Visa tried to scam me.
Asshats.
 I can write long articles, send them places (even if I'm not writing for anyone at this point), I have a Yahtzee knock off that can keep me amused longer than I care to admit and I can list to Audible content (HUGE improvement to the speaker) and music. I'm even surprised that my janky 10 year old astrology program still works.The screen is beautimous, however, now it looks craptacular again since I put one of those screen protectors on it becauseI already scuffed/lightly scratched it with my jangly earrings… sigh.
In short, nifty.
I should get another one (if the price drops again) to stockpile my PalmOS fix for several years (though one hopes that Apple with recover from its cranio-rectal inversion (case in point:2 *years* to get copy/paste* WTF? and still no BT  keyboard support.) or even that Android will bust out with a BT driver for keyboards (hooray for async!) and provide me with a portable solution for my geek requirements.

And curiously, after successfully ignoring the fuck out of it for MONTHS, my subconscious is poking me with "when Bunny goes away" scenarios.
I don't know if I am responding to cues from her or if it is irrational fear, maybe even that I am still somewhat startled that she is still plugging along after 15 months with no drastic change to her meds/routine and I'm worried my luck will run out.
I don't know.
Whatever it is, I try REALLY hard not to dwell on this thing (Be here now, yadda yadda yadda) so this surfacing of…mental bullshit, for lack of a better phrase, is pissing me off and probably part of this ongoing crap filtering through my psyche.
Bah.
For now knitting is making me happy, I distract myself with too much work and Bunny care and I'm probably doing a bit more retail therapy than I should (i.e. any at all) but I'm weaning myself off that as I go along.
I will muddle through, comme toujours.

might be about the most recent birthday (oh yes, I’m a total whiner)
or might be PMS.

 Who knows?

IMG_0105.JPG, originally uploaded by gravity0069.

My former art prof did this… I got to visit his studio in Dripping Springs, Tx and it was pretty amazing.

Schmap Guides – desktop (sample screenshot), originally uploaded by Emma J. Williams.

I’m included in the Paris Luxembourg Gardens set of photos (they used this one: http://www.flickr.com/photos/fredlet/3205234980/ )
Hooray for Creative Commons license!

well, l’ll have to change the workflow but I can live with that. :)

That’s because, despite my earlier results, no further images have been sent from my phone (well, at least not the big ones. Think AT&T is throttling my UNLIMITED bandwidth subscription? I wouldn’t be a bit surprised because cell phone companies are apparently on a different planet where the word UNLIMITED means "we can put a cap on you". Asshats.)
Back to the drawing board.

Duh.
When I send via Agendus mail on the phone and I get that pesky timeout message, then Gmail creates a draft… I'll just go in via web and click send.
I'll be testing this today, so if you see a picture, you'll know it worked.
If you see me cussing a lot in the 7 languages I can cuss in you'll probably realize it didn't work and that I am a big dummy.

Cross your fingers. ;)

8/20 Post Scriptum:It goes into the sent folder…

(using Agendus) I still have some quirkiness to work out, but I think I have my Centro set up for all the stuff I normally do on my phone… and if I have to be away from a computer for any amount of time, then this + my Palm keyboard serves me pretty well. (and also I have to tilt the phone a wee bit to point the IR beam-y thing at the port that is on the side rather than the top like it was with my Treos, so if my neck has a crick in it or my head lolls to the side, you’ll know I am just compensating for the angle while I type rather than me being a drunk).
I was also pretty pleased to note that one of my old old OLD apps (10+ years old) still works. Hooray! As there is no replacement app for it currently.
This next problem has a pro and con attached to it; the Centro pictures are nice and large. Consequently, they look good, however, they aren’t really emailable at the large size (network connection times out) nor can I MMS them. So spontaneous Flickr/blog postings are out of the question unless I want to dial the resolution down to 640×480 all the time…which I kinda don’t and there isn’t normally time to switch settings (they put the resolution in the Prefs app rather than on the interface on this version of the Palm OS, so that is out.) Any ideas from the peanut gallery?
Ah well. I’ll explore deferred posting (though I suspect I won’t like that) by using the HotSync feature to send the emails in the outbox when I get back to a computer (also, note to self:look for a portable apps Palm sync solution) or just send text only and no travel pics from the phone.
We’ll see.

(a bit late…whatever)
A good weekend overall. I took Friday off from work  and mom and I had planned to go see Zoe Keating at SFO, however when I mentioned that to Tex he looked at me funny.
"What?" I asked.
"You're going to that?" he asked incredulously.
(Its never a good idea if he has heard anything about a music gig…it means that the advertising has saturated the market and has penetrated the waterproof seal and is now in the sheetrock)
"Well, I guess I won't."
I hate crowds and I really didn't want to fight a bridge, fight parking at SFO and then also fight 500 rabid people, a film crew and the odd traveler in a confined space.
Ah well.
So we just did part of the Hayward Trail. I hadn't done a long stretch of walking for a while, but this trail is windy, but flat. So I figured we could turn around at any time. I started feeling it in those nameless connectors to my quads like I normally but it never really hurt too badly.
Mostly, though I was just  hungry… I only had coffee that morning and it was getting on to 3pm.
Mom wanted to take me out to dinner that night, but I hadn't wanted to fight crowds so I planned to stick a bunch of things in the oven (its low maintenance and has a pretty good result) but my oven decided it didn't want to heat up.
OK, so we went out anyway… steak for dinner then home to bed.
40.
Hmmm.
Still haven't decided how I feel about it. (Ask again in 10 years and I'll probably like it just fine.)

Oooh, 16 million this time!
(And he ain't heavy… but he ain't my brother either)

———- Forwarded message ———-
From: Jude Erunse <erunsejude@yahoo.com.sg>
Date: Fri, Aug 14, 2009 at 10:28 AM
Subject: I expect your acceptance reply.
To: erunsejude@googlemail.com

My Dear Brother,

Hello! it is important i contact you, in brief i am Mr.Jude Erunse, I work at Versus bank CI. I am the manager foreign remittance department we have a client by the name Eng.Haque who died in a plane crash along with his family for a very long time now. since then we have been looking for his next of kin to come forth and inherit his account but to know avail. The bank has decided to transfer the fund to bank treasure as the law guiding our bank demands. The customer deposited $16. million united state dollars. Now please understand that the reason why i am contacted you is based on the fact that you hold the same last name with the deceased depositor as such you are the rightful beneficiary to his account. What is required is simple, you are to apply to the bank as beneficiary / next of kin to the decease (our customer). Upon your acceptance, I will send you an application letter which you we forward to the bank. After the successful transfer we shall split the money 50/50 equally and all expenses such as tax which your country may required from us shall be taken care of by us from the total funds after the successful transfer of the funds. Every information about this transaction will be given to you by me so you have noting to fear of worry about. Your assistance and provision of an account suitable to receive the funds is only needed. You can contact me via this email address for more clarification if their is any thing you do not understand before will start. Meanwhile to enable us proceed, you are to provide your full name, current address, occupation, date of birth and direct telephone number / fax number. this is essential to prepear the letter i mentioned above. I am waiting to hear from you positively. Thanks.

Yours sincerely,
Mr.Jude Erunse.

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The correct pronunciation is THIRTY-TEN.